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Name: Amanda
Location: Rockville, Maryland, United States
Birthday: 11/17/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: friends, family, reading, movies, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, quotes, black eyeliner, pink flamingos, amoebas, running xc and track, eating, laughing, sleeping, black nail polish, guys, animals, nature, magic, dreaming, getting weird looks, walking in the breezeway, pretty things, art in general, avacado cucumber sushi, chocolate, Colombia, spanish stuff, Shakira, Catholicism, stressing over my gpa, gum, getting runover by cars, the wootton run, "dogs", vending machines, running camp, the beach, burping with alana, yoga, and music, j'aime le musique... system of a down, green day, my chemical romance, evanescence, avenged sevenfold, franz ferdinand, the vines, bowling for soup, velvet revolver, the killers, jimmy eat world, kittie, nirvana, le tigre, the disturbed, the flaming lips, dashboard confessionals, guns n roses, chevelle, breaking benjamin, sugarcult, crossfade, modest mouse, white stripes, foo fighters, nine inch nails, rob zombie, oasis, garbage, led zepplin, alice in c
Expertise: being moi.
being looked at as if i were crazy. and getting hit by cars.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  safetyPINZ08
Member Since:
3/18/2005
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| It has been more than 2 years since i last updated. Two whole years of changing and growing and i cant believe i'm updating again.
But i feel like the appropriate time has come to give a brief update. And also cause i just remembered this thing still existed.
Well, since the last post, too many new things have happened.
Like for example, i graduated. Yeah, i know, crazy. I'm no longer the little fresh-into-upperclassmenship junior. I'm [kinda] almost 18 and moving into college this saturday. Yeah thats right. Seeing as to how its 1 30 am, that technically means i'm leaving tomorrow. Where the hell did my summer go? In fact...where the hell did my childhood go? I feel like its happening way too fast and im not ready to leave my family. Being one of the few teens these days that actually misses their parents and is extremely family oriented, i know im gonna be such a sobfest. But hey, its my time. UMBC is only 40ish minutes away, so it wont be too bad. Gooo retrievers class of 2012!
I wont be going back to RM. It's still kinda weird thinking about it...it's been my second home for 4 years. Even though now it's a completely new building since the old one was falling apart. But it was home, you know? It's completely torn down now, and an actual field sits in its place, although i haven't actually seen it yet. We got to move in to the new building after winter break last year, and 08 was the *special* class that got graduate first from it. Oh yay. It's big and modern but too bland for my taste. But i never complained cause we got a hell of a lot with it and everyone should see that. But it just doesn't have that home-y feeling that i got with the old RM. So many memories within those rotting halls. All the laughter, tears, suffering, and angst. I'll never forget it.
On the topic of memories, boy have a got a new load of them. It's like going into those last 2 years changed so much and gave me a ride of my life. Did that really happen 2 years ago? I feel like it was just yesterday. How could time go by so fast? How can everything just slip away so quickly? People come and go but a few always stay with you, even if it's just in your mind. And in your heart.
Even to this day it still hurts thinking back on it. Even after all this time, i still don't know what happened. And even when i know it really is so trivial in the big scheme of things, it will always be with me. Maybe he never really knew just how much i really liked him. Maybe i was just another piece of ass to him, which he never really got. But in the prime of it all, i really truly thought we had something. Of course, that was just my little, naive 16 year old heart thinking. Was he really that blind and plain stupid and oblivious to never see just how head over heels i was for him? I just...cant even put this into coherent words. So many emotions...fnrjgnfdhtgfhgf. Thats how it felt. Thats how it still feels from time to time. Baby, you were one of the most IMPORTANT parts of my highschool career, and i'm practically ashamed to admit that. How i allowed you to get to me so bad, i don't know. Of course i had liked guys before you, but never like you. And even to this day i cant figure out what it was about you that made me fall so damn hard. I barely even knew you when i started. No, i didn't even know you. In the end, you were a big douche bag. And maybe it was partially my fault. I still believe there's more depth to you than my friends want me to believe. But then again, i think that about all people. You had me wrapped around your finger and i loved every second of it. How could you do that to me? What happened? I cant even look at pictures of Prom anymore without getting all flustered. You know, i still continued to like you afterwards. And it took me a year to actually start to get over you. Now, i'm finally somewhat free from you, and i have no one. I just cant seem to muster up enough feelings for anyone else. And still, when i see you, my heart continues to flutter. I still burn my gaze into you and wonder what you think when you meet my eyes. I still think of you, sometimes, when i feel alone at night. And for those couple of hours when i had you, really had you, all to myself, you made me the happiest i had been in a long time. But you will probably never know just how much you meant to me.
My silly little rambling about my shitty lack-of-love life is now over. Oh hooray. Lets wallow in self pity...not.
Throughout the whole thing i was just a stupid little girl anyways. More stupid than i am right now. Cause i still have plenty to learn. Why do you think i'm going to college?
There's so much more i need to do, so much more i want to accomplish. World, here i come. Prepare to be saved.
How the hell was a blessed with such amazing friends? Sometimes i wonder. But in the end, i smile. How we blossomed, i don't know, but my A.Crew has been one of the most important people these past couple of years. Nina, Sana and Kara, you don't know how much i love you.And even though we've graduated, i hope to the heavens that we still stay strong. I know its hard. And i know that in the end, things will probably not be as we planned. But i know we'll always have a special place in out hearts for each other. And my dear alana, i'm actually confident enough in our bond to not worry too much about us. I know it's a bit silly to contemplate the future right now, but i truly believe that our friendship will be able to withstand the tests of time. Yes, you can go ahead and lecture me. But i swear to you, we have some sort of connection that cant be easily broken. No matter what, i'll always be there for you, moo. You will always be able to lean on me. Oh, and so can eva. haha i have too many 09 friends, which makes leaving even harder. Thats why i'll be visiting so fucking much. I just love them too much. It's like i gained sister...or two. A little and big one. My alana and monica, who i will always have. When will i ever get over RM? Well, with my actual biological sister going in a year...it's gonna be a while.
Whats one thing that will especially pain me to leave?
RMXC team- ladies and gents<333
If there's anything i'll cry for, it would def have to be these kids. No words can describe my love for this team. Or my love for running, for that matter. 4 years of pain, suffering, victory, loss, laughter, tears, sweat, blood, injury, and success. 4 years of sincere devotion and love. It made me realize what being an athlete truly is. And i'm beyond proud to call myself one. And just because i'm not running in college doesn't mean i'm not a runner. I am and always will be a runner, as long as i run. They will always be my team, long after i'm gone.Every single moment of despair was worth the moments of pure joy and happiness. The cuts, the bruises, the cramps, the injuries, the car rolling over my foot, the nausea, and the heatstroke. It was all worth it in the end. Because i know nothing i do will ever compare to what this team did for me. And for that, they have my undying love.
From the outside looking in, they could never understand.From the inside looking out, we could never explain.
Yeah, that just about sums it up.
Well, now my summer is pretty much over and it was definitely one of my best. Beach Week was one of the craziest parts of it all, and i loved every minute. I've found out that being bad is definitely as fun as they say, but i've also discovered that i will always play with caution. All work and no play makes mandies a dull girl. But all play and no work also makes mandies a poor girl. So work hard, and party hard..er. Things should work out.
I will now go and try to get over my joker, twilight, MICHAEL fuckin PHELPS obsession. Olympics are my current love interest and Phelps is my future husband. As well as Ballack...and other random men. That also includes fictional men, thanks. Yep, i'm still a dork. Good times and good summer obsessions. =)
[R.I.P. Grandma, I will always love you. Words are not enough to honor your life.]
I probably will not update this thing...possibly ever again. But i have a feeling i will. Probably not any time soon...but eventually. Maybe after i graduate college. Or get married. Whichever comes first.
Just kidding...har har. But really, i will be back someday. As i somewhat leave adolescence and enter adulthood, i bid farewell to my childish innocent. One day i'll look back and see how lame i really was. Awww.
Okay, enough with the dramatics. See ya later 17-year-old me! I'll catch ya in my 20's. ;)
Peace&Love always,
Mandies
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| I cant believe summer is already fading away. It feels like i just made that last entry, all hight spirited and excited. Summer is unofficialy over. XC has started, and thats def not a bad thing. XC=love of my life. School in 2 weeks. Mixed feelings. Im definately PUMPED for jr, cause i know it gonna be so much better. It really feals like a fresh new start. 08 Upperclassmen, dont hate. Its gonna be one hell ofa year. But im looking back at this past summer...
drama, sleepovers, skinny dipping, mall ratting, sleeping till noon, alanas basement, the house trio plus 2, rat and ny, priceless moments, walking/running barefoot in the rain, fireworks, pictures galore, staying up till 6, rio storm, movies, POTC2, running camp, colombia, wine shots, memorable quotes, and so much more.
Running Camp 06:
*3 girls, 2 beds
*worst babysitters of all time
*MONICA, GET IN THE DAMN CAR
*10 bucks, 2 meals
*feminine product excursion
*the girls dorms in general
*ketchup and chara. no. blah.
*chicken....mustard.....ohhhhhhh yesss
*videos!- "Alanas make-up...thing"&"The booty shake"
*make it look like its goin blaaaaack
*Im christine...how funny!
*yoga
*pool and pingpong
*Evurr again!
*fernando. nuff said.
*alanas country lova
*beautiful trails
*fun runs
*stalker at midnight. oh my.
*THE DANCE...purple much? Rocking the dance floor. sweaty dirtay fun.
*P.G.<333333333 my love for the night. dont hate. hes my perv guy :)
*touching...groping...lifting...feeling...yeah.
*awkardness
*sad goodbyes.
christina.dara.amber.katie.eavan.diane.lynley.<3
COLOMBIA:
Family, parties, food in large quantities, san andres, HOTT GUYS, love, fun, and happiness. What more could you ask for?
I wish time would just stop.
Pictures will not be posted for now. Cause i have no patience and time. Have a nice end of summer.
:EDIT:
I officialy have THE best song on here. How could you not love it?
motherfucking snakes on a motherfucking plane. enough said. | | |
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AHHHHHHH!
i am so happy. oh so very happy. i cant believe it. im half way done with highschool. in 2 years, i'll be graduated and preparing for college. kinda scary. this year wasnt great, but it didnt totally suck either. it had plenty of horrible parts, but when i think about it, it also had plenty of happy times. im ready for my jr year, because somethings telling me that its gonna be one of the best i'll have. and this summer is looking nice too. PLANS= Running my ass off, sleeping, being a lazy bum while watching non-stop scifi (needless to say, dork), crunking, Running Camp!, and COLOMBIA! my summer should be fun. im not afraid of doing what i want. im gonna live it to the fullest. my love goes out to my 08ers! we are now upperclassmen. :)
to my friends, thanks for a great year. and all that jazz. you know i love you. btw, im keeping my eye on youuuuu! haha dont even try to guess.
Dear incoming freshmen/10ers,
I hope some of you somehow get to this xanga. so read this cause im giving you some advice. im not gonna bash on you or tell you how to act. but i will say this. dont come in RM desperate for upperclassmen friends, in skimpy clothes and a bad attitude. most of us resent that. acting like this may get you some friends, but they dont even see the real you. save the drama and learn how to respect. in all honesty, class of 08 was actually a pretty good freshmen class. we didnt come in with an attempt of being soooooo popular. fuck that. we were pretty damn real and we had respect. and guess what? no one hates us. we cool. anywas, 09 was not as nice. no offense, but some of them were just....ahhh ejrdjndjdfgnd trust me, alot of us know what we're talking about. i have my 09 friends whom i love, but thats because they werent desperate. they were themselves. so, to all of you kids... dont be fucking fake! be your damn selves, got that? and with the unfortunate case that your true self happens to be a snobby bitch....well i have no help. wow i cant beleive i wrote this crap. good luck and see ya in August. ps- if you try out for xc, i'll be there. ;)
no pictures for this entry. go to facebook/webshots if you wish. i dont know what else.
    
    
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sike i lied. couldnt help put some pretty pictures. i am also getting pretty into this World Cup 200fricken6. oh yess. most of you bettin on Brazil? yah. i want to be in Germany.
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| This shall be my last entry before i freak out on here about it being summer. :)
so, i am preparing for the wonderful day of June 13th at aprox. 10somethingish when i will be FREE. but for now, im sitting around. attempting to not fail at life and be productive.
I AM PUMPED FOR XC 06.
we had the xc meeting, which btw had a crappy turnout. especially because certain people did not attend. cough. but anyways, twas a party and only xc lovas were invited. finally saw SCOTT! after many weeks. best coach in the history of coaching, along with T$. lovelovelove. got our running scheds, permission shit, and a nice talk from scotty. i also enjoyed frolicking with alana, robin, and pedro, memorizing a cell numba (shhh) and seeing the rest of my xc mates, including evabeava, lulu, valerie, ben-son, and such. and some newbies! yayyyz. so this is my section of running obsession. woo pahhhh.
so the last couple of days since my last post have been spent with too many friends and freshies, attending rockville prom, even more frolicking with man and ro, wanting to do man's brother, hometown holidays, celebrating fathers bday with family, and basically being too cool. pictures will illustrate the fun.
now, the little extra bits i left out. panda bears are awesome. i got myself i stalker. i love my fav German boy and i dont want him to leave. we'll miss you michael! pantaloony's pants are marked. lauren and i are writing a story. its a must-read. something has broken. and its one hellofa GREAT thing, of you catch my drift. im wanting it more and more. me and alana have our *plans*. i want this to work. i want it to happen. and my hopes are high for this small portion of the future. ;) | | |
| whyy? the answer is in here at the bottom. duh. aaand since the movie is a week away i thought it would be appropriate. and also because im freaking out so much that if i keep it inside any longer i think i might explode.
xanga is just too tempting. i gotta update.
nothing really new cept that school is slowy but surely ending. i guess next week is the last "real" full week. sweet. umm well...Much Ado About Nothing kind of rocks. Shakespear=genius. yes, already this early into my entry you can tell im an oddball. i <3 my ROBUNCTANT SQUAD. im bored.
list ten things you want to say to people but you know you never will.
don't say who they are, use people only once in no order...
1) Ofcourse youre the 1st person to come to mind. i think youre pretty awesome. just a bit. haha you know i love you and youre the one who knows it allllll. i can tell you pretty much anything, after all we've been through together, its kind of a given. we'll have eachother forevaa. oh the literally countless good times...
2) You are one of my best friends yo. ive known you for a while and at 1st it was kinda hard to get close to you. but thats because of my shyness. but i finally overcame it and we deff have bonded over the years. i love you, even when you do things that i might disaprove of *cough* , im always here for you. i know we're gonna keep getting closer.
3) aaaand my other one of my best friends. oi, for some reason i didnt have much trouble getting comftorable with you. maybe its cause its you. haha you know i love you and all those hilarious things youve done. you just keep making me laugh. but sometimes things can get i bit annoying, but im just the kind of person who gets irratated easily. even with all those things, youre still one of the best.
4) You. yeah you. i know you know who i am. and i know you. and i wish so many things. and i think your catching on to me. through all those obvious clues. and part of me hopes you have. but the other part is scared as shit. just look at me. only this time, say something to me.
5) I dont think you realize how much i love you. I feel like im your older sister, im always there with you to protect and back you up. when i first met you, i didnt think we would get close at all. to be honest, you didnt seem like the kind of person i would love to hang with. but was i wrong. we got really close really fast, and it was pretty unexpected. i tell you soooo many things, and im not afraid to ay them. and you do the same. i know im the person you come to to talk to. and im happy. this friendship is a strong one.
6) and youuu are my other sister. only youre the older one. it took a while for us to really click, but you are one of the best. i come to you for advice and comfort. sometimes i feel a little distant with you, but only when we have a little disagreement. but i love you. dont let anyone bring you down. just be who you are, just like you have been.
7) I dont think you know how much of a lying backstabbing BITCH you are. WTF. you are so fake and desperate. you may have fooled some people, but i was never fully convinced. how could you do all of these things? i dont hate you, i hate what youve done. everyone is capable of being a good person, but you have to realize when youve crossed the line. one day it will allll catch up to you.
8) WOAH, i cant believe i havent mentioned you yet! youre one of my best, you little freak. we deff have some big things in common *cough* but i wont go into that. we can always talk about the randomest shit and have an amazing convo that no one else will understand. we're cool. and our notes are the best. i love how you can be your true self, no matter what. now that admirable. youre my looooove.
9) you annoy me. i dont know why, honestly. and i feel bad saying it, but i cant help it. theres just something...and i cant stand it. oi. whatever. i cant even remember what i was gonna say. im not a bitch. im just me. sorry. best of luck.
10) it was so hard picking the last person, cause theres still a ton left. but i picked you. why? because i do love you and i can be a complete and utter idiot around you. because you can do the same around me. we've had our distant moments, but when we get back together, its like we were never appart. with our random adventures and stupid plans, youre just fun to be with. and youre another one of those people i tell ....stuff...to. never let this friendship die.
sorry i couldnt name all of ya.
i will most deff. edit with pics in about a week ;) i think im going to go freak out a bit more now....
I wish i knew how to quit you
::Edit::
I have exploded. And its all done. BUT for those of you who havent seen it(pleasewatchtrailer), GO! Because its NOT boring. If you think it is then please go read the book and really analyze it kthanks. Lets review that wonderful day....
This is me before, on the brink of explosion:
Me after, quite depressed of it being over:
Good times. I also kidnapped Sarah and made her watch it. Luckily, she enjoyed it.
Woo pah. 7 more real days of school left. | | |
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